warning: this is a bit somber and may be a downer
Blah. That's me lately. I've been holding it in but then that's not really good for a person so much, is it now? Somehow posting a blog makes it easier to work through. Things aren't bad- just blah.
With all of the daily routines, friendships, traditions, habits, events, family gatherings, relationships... I find myself totally bored. Not so much with the people and processes in my life but the way I find myself in the midst of it all. Where did my excitement go? It could be just a little low after a tremendous summer of going and going. Haiti, a fabulous vacation with my husband, going to and fro. It could be that I've just become blah on my own. In addition, I am feeling a quite spiritually anemic right now. Also, I feel at a loss for girl time. John and I are both pretty bored with this season of life (our lives being up in the air) I miss my family A LOT lately. So close and yet so far away. My creative outlets are diminishing, by my own lack of pursuit though. Wah, wah, wah...
God is good. Happiness is a state of mind. Blah is a a passing season. There is much to be joyful about even when I'm honestly not feelin' it. Which I'm not.
This is one of my favorite verses because :
a.) it's true
b.) it was on my wedding invitations (in part)
c.) it reminds me that a both a physical and spiritual season change are just around the corner.
To everything there is a season,
a time for every purpose under the sun.
A time to be born and a time to die;
a time to plant and a time to pluck up that which is planted;
a time to kill and a time to heal ...
a time to weep and a time to laugh;
a time to mourn and a time to dance ...
a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing;
a time to lose and a time to seek;
a time to rend and a time to sew;
a time to keep silent and a time to speak;
a time to love and a time to hate;
a time for war and a time for peace.
I am pretty sure that the New English Contemporary Trendy Pete Seeger Version would mention something like " a time for feeling blah and a time not for feeling blah"
It's in the blah times that I realize how good it is to be in the will of God, knowing he has my paths aligned, my heart in his hand. My moods, seasons and soul changes frequently but it's nice to rest in the fact that unlike all of these things, he never changes. Ever. At the appointed time, things change. "A time for every purpose under heaven" . In the meantime, I learn from this blah-ness and the non -change and will rejoice when the season will finally turn, turn, turn..